I suck ... kinda

So. I only worked out once today. Which is a far cry from the three times that I wanted to work out today. BUT, I didn't eat anything. Just drank water and diet pepsi. (I am a diet soda FIEND. I really should stop with it because I know there's something bad about it ... I forget what.)
So I only partially suck today. At least I worked out once. At least I didn't eat. Tomorrow I have to step it up with the work outs. I'm eating a yogurt in the morning (90 cals) then a side of spinach (20 cals, I'm pretty sure) and one serving of chicken (80 cals). So altogether that's 190 cals. It's not under 150, but at least it's under 200. And I'll burn at least 1100 cals at the gym and hope fully do another work out tape after work or something.
God I should have worked out after I got home from work. But I didn't. Joe called. He made me feel pretty. Damn him. Bad self esteem is the best motivator to work out. He was out at the bar with his friends. But he called me just to say "hi" because he "missed me". I laughed at him and was like "Hi, you're drunk." He was like "No. I just like you." The whole age thing sucks. But maybe he's just like starting to not care. Or something. It does totally boost my self esteem though. Because he's 24 and sooo hot and funny. He's out at a bar with all of the barsluts ... but he's calling me. He's wasting his time just to say "hi" to a dumb 18 year old that can't go out to bars or anything. I don't know. I leave for school in 4 weeks. After I leave, we'll probably like never see each other again.
I like him, though.